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This is just beautiful...I too had cancer in my early thirties and was thrusted into fertility talks and multiple miscarriages and then a marriage ending. I wonder if without the pressure of kids whether things would have just moved forward more naturally without so much intense and irreparable heartache. There is so much secrecy to motherhood and those that can and those who can’t. Also women who only tell their story after the happy ending. Grateful for your piece that makes me feel less alone x

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Thank you for reading and sharing your own experience, Camilla. (Apologies for lag on my end in responding here.) Glad we are both healthy! And yes, I’ve learned “happy endings” and most really difficult things are equally ephemeral, changeable. So we might as well be present to the process. I greatly appreciate your feedback.

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What a gorgeous piece of writing.

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Thank you! No better compliment.

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Sep 24, 2023·edited Sep 24, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

This is such a beautiful piece. Just wanted to express how valuable and important your awesome story is for other women who have lived a similar journey and want to see examples of non-parents thriving. There are many roads to a happy life yet the one promoted most is motherhood and nuclear family life. But it just doesn't work out for some of us, no matter how hard we try. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm inspired.

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Leah, Thank you so much for your feedback. I truly appreciate it. There are so many ways to make a life, and I’m trying to normalize taking different paths to meaning and joy. Thank you again for reading.

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Jul 11, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

Wow. Thank you. No words.

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Honored that you feel that way! Thank you for reading and for your feedback.

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Jul 10, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

I’m very moved by your writing - your vulnerability and strength is what we need more of in our current culture and dialogue. I’m 45 and have 2 kids now but struggled with unexplained infertility in my early 30’s and recognize/remember a lot of what you share. And am continually shocked by how many parents don’t truly see and embrace what parenting is - it’s incredibly difficult and humbling and relentless.

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HLG, Thank you for reading and for your thoughtful input here. It’s interesting that it landed for you, despite being on the other side of the fertility crevasse. Thank you for your feedback. It means more than you could know.

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Apr 17, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

Thank you for sharing this. Great take on the whole subject honest, with a sense of humour and not bitter at all. I went through this myself minus the cancer. So 100% with you on all of this. It’s great to read about it.

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Thank you for reading, Ida. I’m glad this resonated. I’m writing to create representation, to make visible our experience. And it means a lot to know you felt these feelings, too.

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Apr 17, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

I appreciate you talking about a topic that most find uncomfortable. Your grace, and subtle humor mixed with the vulnerability of this piece is really well done!

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Apr 17, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

Sometimes we stumble across a piece of writing that changes everything. This was one of those for me - thank you, truly.

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I am honored, my talented friend. I hope you keep

Sharing your creativity, too. The world needs it.

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Apr 16, 2023Liked by Laura Rubin

Amazing writing! Thoroughly enjoyed the read. Thank you for taking the time and effort to share your beautiful words.

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Ahhh Lacy, thank you very much for the kind words. I’m so very glad you enjoyed it. More to come...

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So well written Laura. Quite a goodbye (or see you later) letter to California! Keep on inspiring people with your words and actions friend.

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That’s a particularly meaningful compliment coming from you, the poetess. Thank you very much, Emily. Appreciate you reading.

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Your writing is so beautiful and appreciated. Thank you for sharing with us.

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Thank YOU for reading and sharing your feedback. It helps me know I’m on the right track...

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